It's that whole new year thing again, and like so many people before me I find that time seems to be speeding up with every day that I age, which is disturbing because it already feels like it's rushing by a breakneck speed. Wasn't it only a few days ago that I was holding my tiny 3 week old baby girl? Wasn't it just last month that we even decided to have girlbaby? Sigh.
Angieways. I don't like resolutions, mostly because it seems like both focusing on what I don't like about myself *and* setting myself up for failure, but these last couple weeks I've found myself making long lists of mental resolutions, scrapping those and making short lists with vague/broad ideas, scrapping those and deciding to make one resolution but plan to have completed it by the end of the month and then make another one, etc., etc., and so forth. Obviously I am feeling the need for change, but in typical me fasion, have no idea how best to go about it. Also, feeling the need for change feels like criticism, which my loving husband can confirm I do not take well. Despite this, however, I have settled on a couple things out of the vast list in my head of ways I could be better to aim for.
Number One: Quiet time. This is the very most important and the one I am afraid will be the hardest. I dislike getting up early, I have two little people who have a pact to make sure I never go more than 5 minutes without interruption, and I actually don't feel quite all there before 2pm most days. So many things want a piece of my mornings, it's quite easy to let them all crowd in and overwhelm me before I've gotten my footing for hte day. I feel certain that many of the things on those long lists of stuff I want to change will fall into place if I make it more of a priority to start the day right.
Number Two: Blog. It's not that I have aspirations to be a writer or that I think I have interesting things to say. My head is a lot like my fridge: cluttered and disorganized. In the same way something tastey or useful might find itself trapped in the back and I won't find it until it's moldy and useless, I have random thoughts that might be small and insignificant or big and meanigful, but since they just stay there in my head they quickly become useless or worse, smelly and nasty and overwhelming to everything else in there with them. So my plan is to dump all those thoughts here so that maybe I won't have that "my head asplode" feeling all the time.
Number Three: Do the good stuff first. This is similar to the whole "eat dessert first" thing you hear people say, except I'm a little more partial to french fries and well, the effect of those on the shape of my body and how I feel about that is a whole other post that I may or may not get to some day. No, I'm talking about how each day I think I'll do the blah type stuff first (wash dishes, laundry, etc.) and then I'll do what I really want like sew or knit. Only most days I never make it to those things, and I don't seem to get all the chore type stuff done either. Meanwhile my poor little etsy shop languishes and dozens of projects go unfinished for truly ridiculous amounts of time. So I'm going to start with the stuff I really want to do early in the day and hey, who knows, maybe our socks and undies will start washing themselves!
So that's it, my three New Years... hopes. If I don't fail at number 2, I'll let you know how it goes.
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